Monday, March 26, 2012

BIG BOY appears

 The simple threat of having to date another dull person in this world, has left. Thank Heavens! I try to hold on to a good guy, but when their no fun, no point but to move on. . .  
  I soon found myself last week, on a "catch up" date with one of my fellow guys I use to date back and forth. He was known has my "big boy", because at the time he was 6 foot 2 and weighed 260 pounds defensive line backer for some minor football team in my town. We hit off pretty good in the past. A country boy with some southern slang to his accent. I think what attracted me to him, was his time of being fragile and oblivious to me finding him attractive. In fact, the first time I met him, I liked him. (immediately). What also hit it off, was the christian morales he held, like passing out teddy bears to children in hospitals or becoming a chaperon for the church's youth group.
  I guess his christian view also carried heavily through his family, as well as his mother. I never met the mother, or any contact what so ever when I was dating her son. My Facebook appeared Private and I posted very few photos of me and big boy, nothing obscene. nothing wrong. . . so, I thought.
  I was wanting to meet his mother, I really wanted to get to know his family. For some reason, I thought they might find me a good catch for their son. But, I got a phone call from big boy simply saying "HAHAHA.. your not going to think its funny, but my mom saw your profile and cried" CRIED?!!? what? me? miss never posts wrong photos or watches what I say on Facebook...me??? oh, surely she had the wrong profile.
  I could not figure out how someone could cry over my profile, it was on private. I constantly checked to reassure myself that every album was on private. I begin to worry over a highly overbearing christian woman...who obviously thought I was entitled to the word "tramp".  
    He told me not to worry about it. But, that likes me telling him my father hates his guts, but not to "worry" about it. I eventually disappear from him, has he went on to different places for the training of his job. every once in a while I got a couple phone calls out of the blue, to catch up and talk about the good times. 
  I soon discovered him on St.Patrick's Day at a block party. through slow motion and through the drunk crowds of people, our eye locked and I had to turn away immediately. I turned back and could see his smile has he shouted the words "c'mon girl, come over here". (play it cool...play it cool) was all I could think as I noticed him loosing lots of pounds since I last saw him. He looked great! 
    I soon found my bold self asking to catch up. Is it wrong to enter a past? 
    We were just catching up, with lots of flirtation. I could tell during dinner we both discovered nothing would probably happen, since he and I developed two complete different schedules. He and I could never. Me and him had problems before, nothing huge, but enough to dissolve the relationship.
   But once more I find it odd, having him thrilled to see me again. Afterall, his mother fears me. The mystery will always lye about how I made her cry. and I think one more dinner would not be bad, one more time this one week.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Don't be bitter...?


I am embodied into another countless relationship…
                The thrills and sensations are rather dull and just an everyday guy, with the sensational attitude of my friends repeatly saying “He’s prefect for you”. Since when did a platter of a ham sandwich seem flattering over a philly?
                Girls always want more than they can have. We subtract and add to a list of what we want, not sure if it is what we want. But after two months of dating and once a week meet ups to him sitting in front of me at a restaurant watching me eat while he just sits and talks about how broke he is, is not my desire.
                I have asked this former sweetheart of mine to take me to his place, since I’ve been there once and his arguments of being broke are always mentioned. But the excuse of having and I quote “asshole roommate” is the over used excuse. Wanting me to particularly meet the friends is a slow and mature circumstance for all relationships; I just occasionally beat around of the bush and always introduce my guys no matter how long it lasts. But then the fear, the fear of everyone meeting the next guy, and the next guy to hear the comment “ should I remember this one’s name?”
                This fellow that I am seeing? For once! For once! Is a good guy. Never cheats. Only has had four serious girlfriends and doesn’t sleep around or find strippers appealing. The good deeds from him is a simple “good morning” text which I always receive every morning, and positive thinking im always on his mind.
                Constantly texting me and if he doesn’t text me in a couple hours, he always types the excuse why and tries to call me back. Communication? Is far from well.
                He hangs out with the boys, a lot. Which is good. Not clingly or obsessive and believes friends come before chicks. Amazing!
                But where is the spice? The romance? Our next date is to the library, to study. Because I had to think of someplace to take him that was free. I pay for meals and I pay for things as well. But after two months of going out, I need thrills! Something! The boy is too shy to hold my hand…
                I am going to give it a chance…this one is great. Really he is, but damn I might be too wild for him.