Once again, I am like every other twenty year girl trying to juggle through college...
I am single. I am over stressed. and I am still trying to find that connection with relationships.
This is a topic, I mostly write about because as much as I am curious about it, I as well cannot for the life of it find the true love, or any being of relationship. I am considered "the ALMOST girlfriend", so close to having the title, but doesn't quite have it.
Which is why I must confess me and Mr.boring were having an amazing relationship, the second time around, I fell in love. But the love began to suppress as the summer was winding down and he began to look for things about me that wasn't up to his standards. He completely stopped talking to me like he did before. Its the lessons we never learn from and we always go back to. Don't lie! You have been in relationships were it was all wrong, you knew it, and you disobeyed your friend's advice because it was what YOU wanted.
Well, here am I dealing with the fact I had incredible truck sex with Mr.boring behind the back of a movie theater (Classy once again), and did all the right things. His kiss was passionate, his hands we strong and over sense of strength to take care of me. It just happened. I wanted him, so I went for it, we had worked up to it for the past two months. Once we said our goodbyes, I gave my girlfriends a call gossiping about the moment. Two days later...he stops calling me. No text. No email. So I left Mr.boring and email he'll never forget.
We as ladies are always told sex is not the answer to build a relationship, so why do we urn for it so bad? The way I put it, if we are so vulnerable, maybe its time to step up to the plate. "Act like a Lady, Think like a Man", we must put our instinct of feelings aside and think ahead. Mr.Boring was all wrong for me, and incredible asshole as he is, I cannot let myself become heartbroken. Instead, I think of him as just another "number" in my book, and put on the "shit list", wishing him the best in life, and feeling sorry for whoever his future wife might be, if asshole ever decides to find love.
If this has ever happened to you, well just like most girls meeting douche bags, your not alone. And stop worry about "your number", worry about finding a guy who will treat you "Pure". But I will touch up on the "number" thing another day. Most of all, realize whether its your friend or you that is going through a dating process that you shouldn't, always realize your going to do what you want you do, as long as your ready for the consequences that lie ahead, go for it.
