I have come to the conclusions that my girlfriends cannot possibly live without a man texting or calling. Their frustration has led me to think I must always try to flirt with some guy, so that I can "not feel lonely" as well.
But why must they feel the need to ALWAYS have someone? I have one girlfriend who has found the perfect boy, but feeds around other guys. She use to say once she found a great guy, she would change, but its still the same.
Is the need for wanting to have someone is more like a disease, or just human nature?
I have become perfectly content with waking up or going to sleep and not have a text from someone who I or he admires. My friends say, "I have lack game." but if I lack game, why do I feel like the winner? I feel like I am not using someone nor am I wasting my time. I am so focus onto school, that I do not want someone. Yet, I still put on the makeup and descent clothes everyday.
I wouldn't mind having someone right now, but to obsessively want is a desire I cannot see. Some of my girlfriends will talk to any guy giving them any attention.
The ex has been calling me, and the burning bridges is trying to burn it to pieces. My girlfriend had heard he was trying to get back with me and immediately turned him down. I know why she did, after all he wasn't the best guy for me, but I was still hurt. She has 6 to 7 guys she is talking to or dating, and the one man to show me attention she throws down. I simply replied " least he fights for me back, least he has a sense of want for me..." debbie downer reply it may be, but we all want some form of a person to care for us. This person, was the Sailor, a downright liar and a horrible boyfriend. Yet, I want to feel a sense of likeness.
The last guy that I dated, Mr.boring, was...Mr.boring. But by him still becoming Facebook friends, has actually tortured me. I do not creep on his page at all, after all, everything practically on private, and for a boring guy, that's strange. But I always see him online, and not once he has messaged me. I guess I should explained: When we "broke" up, it was over text, over a stupid pathetic fight, I apologized heavily, made a fool explaining that I liked him and that I did not want it to end. I also asked him, if he wanted me, if he liked me, he was to just say it, just say right then and there. I ended up getting what no girl wants: Silence.
Not a call. Not a text. Nothing. I realized we ended when I didn't hear from him the next morning.
I thought I would hear from him eventually. but, nothing.
I guess I see our friendship on Facebook, is a joke and a mock. Mr.boring stays on my page as one of my favorites, and yet, I haven't talked to him.
The week we stopped talking, I stopped looking for guy. yet, I have a sense of him to want me, even though I could care less about him. I guess because we left our wanting relationship into silence.
I have an internship at a advertising company along with double classes and a job this summer, I expect more books. Though stress and worrying about school has kept me busy, little thoughts of the men who are silent with me, spark me to curiosity.
But I see a sense of challenging yourself, putting your goals forward will give you a sense of want, in return a person could give. Of course, its always easier said then done. But we must realize, your sense of want will match up to the person that wants you.
But why must they feel the need to ALWAYS have someone? I have one girlfriend who has found the perfect boy, but feeds around other guys. She use to say once she found a great guy, she would change, but its still the same.
Is the need for wanting to have someone is more like a disease, or just human nature?
I have become perfectly content with waking up or going to sleep and not have a text from someone who I or he admires. My friends say, "I have lack game." but if I lack game, why do I feel like the winner? I feel like I am not using someone nor am I wasting my time. I am so focus onto school, that I do not want someone. Yet, I still put on the makeup and descent clothes everyday.
I wouldn't mind having someone right now, but to obsessively want is a desire I cannot see. Some of my girlfriends will talk to any guy giving them any attention.
The ex has been calling me, and the burning bridges is trying to burn it to pieces. My girlfriend had heard he was trying to get back with me and immediately turned him down. I know why she did, after all he wasn't the best guy for me, but I was still hurt. She has 6 to 7 guys she is talking to or dating, and the one man to show me attention she throws down. I simply replied " least he fights for me back, least he has a sense of want for me..." debbie downer reply it may be, but we all want some form of a person to care for us. This person, was the Sailor, a downright liar and a horrible boyfriend. Yet, I want to feel a sense of likeness.
The last guy that I dated, Mr.boring, was...Mr.boring. But by him still becoming Facebook friends, has actually tortured me. I do not creep on his page at all, after all, everything practically on private, and for a boring guy, that's strange. But I always see him online, and not once he has messaged me. I guess I should explained: When we "broke" up, it was over text, over a stupid pathetic fight, I apologized heavily, made a fool explaining that I liked him and that I did not want it to end. I also asked him, if he wanted me, if he liked me, he was to just say it, just say right then and there. I ended up getting what no girl wants: Silence.
Not a call. Not a text. Nothing. I realized we ended when I didn't hear from him the next morning.
I thought I would hear from him eventually. but, nothing.
I guess I see our friendship on Facebook, is a joke and a mock. Mr.boring stays on my page as one of my favorites, and yet, I haven't talked to him.
The week we stopped talking, I stopped looking for guy. yet, I have a sense of him to want me, even though I could care less about him. I guess because we left our wanting relationship into silence.
I have an internship at a advertising company along with double classes and a job this summer, I expect more books. Though stress and worrying about school has kept me busy, little thoughts of the men who are silent with me, spark me to curiosity.
But I see a sense of challenging yourself, putting your goals forward will give you a sense of want, in return a person could give. Of course, its always easier said then done. But we must realize, your sense of want will match up to the person that wants you.
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