R.I.P friendship

If you ask me, I find my friends who are starting to have serious relationships, are starting to loose their edge. Yes, I was rather use to the single fun free loving style of my friends who can wild out, but now I have to get use to the fact they rather stay home and snuggle 7 days a week than see me. 

I feel a little use, after all, the text messages & phone calls were constant before another man stood in the way. Every weekend, I spent all my time with my girls and was known to be the wild one in the crowd. The girl who could throw a pair of glow sticks around, get free drinks, and talk to several guys at the same time. I was looked up to in a way, because I go up to a guy and have any man buy me a drink while spending out connections to go places and gather free happenings. But soon, my girlfriends started to tell their guys they were just "talking to" what I was all about. Since I was frown upon by the guys point of view, it made my girlfriends soon frown upon me. 

I don't see it in a guilt matter on showing my game, when I was hurt many times for this matter. In the game, I grew tough skin and I learned not to fall. If I am to fall, it leaves a wound and I rather not have scars on me ready to take place for the next guy in my life. Therefore, It should not be a crime for my time now. I am young, slightly attractive, and have the high energy for me to play out all night. I don't want to be held down nor be hidden in a cave coming out just for food. My girlfriends, I consider some, to be like cavemen. disappearing and lonely. They scout whoever they can find, once a man is attached, all they ever knew is gone and the idea for a "wedding band" is all they see.

Maybe its good, change for them. It shows me a lot sooner who they are rather than being thrown to the suffering wolves later down the road. My goals are different, which is probably why one might have me frowned upon. After all, I want to travel, work up into the business world, and leave this city. Unlike my girlfriend's dream in life is to married and become housewives. Its sad, but true. Hearing from their own mouths makes me wonder why I even became friends with the type never to step out of the line but live a life of rather no dreams. 

Which is why I have gained acceptance, my girlfriends will never be the same as it was this past summer, but least I had an amazing year with them.